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October 27 Say huh??????? can you blog that?????Ok, so today is a rare treat for everyone... I am posting two blogs because this is just too much to keep inside myself for too long....
I have been helping a friend of mine... tutoring actually.... for a while now... she recently got her DIL enrolled in the same school... different subject area but the same school... and I am tutoring her too... helping her... which is entailing a lot more one on one for various reasons.....
On this occasion, she had to go read something on the web and then write up answers to two questions.... the questions are irrelevant.... even her responses are irrelevant... but I thought I would share with you all just how important our blogs are to businesses and others.... this was a wow thing to me.... maybe it is because most of it is DUH STUFF .... maybe it is just because those that have the power hold us with so little respect intellectually... I really could not say at this point.... but please please please go check this out....
And then make sure you go to the blogspotting.net at the end of the article and read the blog for Oct 26th.
Will the things people do never stop amazing me................ Leg news...It has been two and a half weeks since they let me start to put weight on my left leg... it is going great so far... I am doing therapy in a therapy pool at the health club I go to at least three times a week... Mrfit goes with me although all he does is talk to me and walk or swim by me... he gets me the stairstep for the bottom of the pool if I decide to do it that way instead of walking up and down the natural steps they have made.... but it allows me to walk without the crutches and exercises the leg without the complete body weight on it... I am doing really good at it too... I can now walk around my house without the aid of the crutch which, to me, is a big improvement... I feel almost like a toddler learning to walk all over again... but that is ok because it is a step in the right direction so to speak...
In September, I had someone tell me I was being stubborn about allowing people to help me... I don't know if it was stubbornness or the fact that when I do ask for help and am forgotten, I feel I should just do for myself the best I can... afterall, it was not the others that broke my leg and it was not even their fault... I have been told by others in the last couple of months, that I should learn to wait for help when I ask for it because others don't like stopping what they are doing... yet some of those same persons expect me to stop to help them whenever they deem it necessary... sounds and feels like a double standard to me... so I do not see how my pushing myself to get better and back to walking faster is being stubborn... I see it as helping myself get back to myself...
I go back to the doctor the day before Thanksgiving... he wants me to be crutch free by then... I want to be as well... The sooner I get walking and walking stable... the sooner I can go back to work...
I have a new sensation in my leg too.... I have always been able to tell when it is going to storm around here ... well ever since my car wreck over 15 years ago that is... I feel it in the small of my back... The new sensation????? It is in the muscles around the plate of metal in my leg... The colder it is the more it throbs... I can't wait to see what it feels like when the snow is in the valley and not just the mountains around me ...
well... for now take care and God Bless...
Joses, in ACTS ... encouraged others along in life... He also goes by Barnabas... He "encouraged them all that with purpose of heart they should continue with the Lord" Acts 11:23
Perhaps a few more people should learn to encourage others instead of hindering or forgetting all together when they said they would help...
October 14 Trooper TragedyI do not think Greg is the only one getting older on our blogs... I think that I have had an age-moment... you know one of those moments that you realize that 20 years ago you would have thought differently about something... or done something differently....
Let me explain..............
Tuesday there was a very very very bad accident about a mile or so from where I live... this is no big occurance for I live close to one of the most dangerous intersections in our great Flathead Valley.... actaully the entire stretch of LaSalle Road aka highway 200 is a dangerous stretch of road to drive on... people think that the cars coming at them at 70 miles an hour will slow down in time for you to safely pull out in front of them...
It doesn't matter what age you are... or the age of the idiot pulling out... they will pull out anyway... there isn't a day that goes by that one of two fire/rescue departments are rolling on an accident on that stretch... it is only about 15 miles total but the middle section is the worse...
Back to Tuesday.... This accident involved a death... also not unusaul... have at least one a month on this stretch of road... this death was different... well to everyone else this death was different... this death was a highway patrol trooper.... Don't get me wrong... I am very saddened by this death and very heartbroken for his three young children and his young wife he left behind...
Keep reading.....
A young woman of 22 years old took her eyes off the road for whatever flippin reason she had... now everyone I know will concur that it doesn't take more than a split second to grab a smoke or a drink or whatever else you could possibly have to look away from the road for... it also doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that to cross two complete lanes of traffic into a third to hit a car head on takes a lot more looking down for more than just a split second... and that is exactly what she did... she ran that trooper's car over like she was in a monster truck doing a trick... up and over it... if you have read the article in the local newspaper, you only get part of the story... and that is only one article on it...
keep reading.......
My problem or should I say problems...
First: there were four wrecks caused because f this woman's lack of paying attention to the road on which she was driving... and yes that has been verified... she was looking down when she crashed.... and yet the only one making major news either on paper or airways is the trooper's death... how sad and unfair it is to those who lost or will lose a lot because of someone else's desire to think they are better and don't have to follow the basic road rules? .... who speaks for those that were seriously hurt but were not a state trooper?
Second: like I said, there is at least a death a month on this stretch of roadway and I do not remember very many of them getting not only local news but interstate news... does this mean that our lives are less important to society because we do not have a badge on? is the mother of the two month old less important because she stayed at home to be a parent instead of putting a badge on?
I have failed to understand ... I fail to understand why so many people walk after killing someone with their car while driving drunk and yet this woman will probably be charged with some sort of vehicular manslaughter for killing a trooper....
I started out stating I think I am getting older.... I know I am getting older because 20 years ago I would have said let her walk too... 20 years ago I would have said that it was just an accident and too many people have lost and been hurt already... but as I also said... this stretch of road is DANGEROUS...... 20 years ago I don't think I would have batted an eye over the loss... and yet now....,
NOW....
I feel sorry for the trooper... I feel sorry for the family he left behind... I feel sorry for the friends he left behind... I feel sorry for the woman that caused this tragedy ... I feel sorry for her family... I feel sorry for her friends... but I do not feel sorry when I say that I think she needs to do some time for this... she not only killed one state trooper but also caused other crashes which will change some lives forever ...
I thank God that my husband came home when he did otherwise he would have been around that scene when all of the crashes were happening.... I thank God that Tuesday was a day that neither boy had to work... I thank God that the bus my daughter rides to school picked her up and dropped her off an hour before the crashes happened.... I pray to God that all those involved will heal quickly and completely... I pray to God that HE gives the young lady the courage to face up to what has happened and still believe that good will come from it in God's time... October 11 Doctor's visitI went to see the doctor today. I can actually put some limited weight on my l eg now. I have three weeks to try to get to where I can walk without so much use of the crutches. I have 6 weeks to be walking without them at all. If I can't walk most of the time witout the crutches at the end of 3 weeks, then I will start therapy on the leg. The doctor seems to agree with me that with a lot of little baby steps and the help of the therapy pool at the health club that we belong to, I should be walking by the end of 6 weeks. This is the good news of the day.
The flip side.......
I do not get to go back to work for at least those 6 weeks, closer to 3 more months he thinks. I know God will provide for me... I know there is a reason for this whole thing to have happened when it did...
It will take up to 9 months for all the muscle to build back up. Trust me, it needs it too.
At least I can start walking on it.. It started swelling up after just a couple of hours on it. I had to come home and take some tylenol. This made my daughter mad because she had to leave early... oh well she will get over it...
God bless us all and keep us all safe!!! October 06 Oct.6Ok so as I said yesterday, my life has been in a healing process the last couple of months... it has made me sad and depressed and made me realize just how much I am NOT appreciated or thought of by my family... just when I think things are smoothing out and starting to go good, I get slapped in the face again...
I honestly have tried to not let things affect me emotionally but it isn't easy... not easy by a long shot... everything is personal now... every snide comment they make... every lack of helping me... every chore left undone because they are used to me just doing it for them (even after getting angry they expect me to do it) ... it all makes me sad... makes me angry ... makes me cry... when I try to zone out and do something for me it is wrong... they want me to be doing something else... and so on and so on...
But on to something better... happier... not necessarily better.....
I have gotten a bunch of crocheting done... 2 shurggies (they are like sweaters), 4 baby blankets, two baby beanies, and a baby sweater... and have 4 more projects started... I switch between them so as to not drive myself batty .... will post some pics of them as I can...
But for now... may God be with you all... may HE still my aching heart and heal my pounding leg... October 05 Welcome back...Ok, so I think I have healed enough to try blogging on the computer again... I am going to add some pics of it at the end of the blog... But I am also going to go back to what I had started this this blog for in the first place... it is a place for my thoughts... a place for me to get out what I need to get out so I can deal with life here at home ... so not all will be fun and games and not all will be bad....
I think that there is a lesson in all of this... actually a lot of lessons in all of this...
I have learned to depend on others... or I am supposed to be learning that... it isn't always easy when I get told and not now when I need or want things and those that I ask don't want to do it for me... That is a hard thing to accept when you can't do things for yourself anymore... and those that can do things do not seem to understand just how it makes another feel... I have always dropped things for my family when they need me to do things for them... I may not always like it but I always drop things for them... but given the way things are you would think that when they say they will keep the dishes done and the laundry caught up that they would do it because I can't for obvious reasons... BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..... it is too much to ask I guess...
I have had to cut back on my coffee too... I can't carry my cups for myself at the moment and it seems to be too much of an imposition to get them to do things when I need them done and not when they want to...
I have spent most of the last 2 1/2 months crying and just down and out depressed... I have seen my family in a whole new light and have cried ot to God... all I keep being told is to be patient... and wait upon HIS time... meanwhile, my house is in such a state of disrepair that it will take me all winter long just to clean up and fix things that I haven't gotten to the last few months... It is almost time for snow and no one will rake my leaves or clean up the sprinklers or hoses or anything else that needs to be done before the snow moves closer down the mountains....
Yes we have snow on the mountains already... and it is colder here now... ohhhhhh wait it is colder in the house because I can't get anyone to help me winterise the furnace to get it ready for use... and I can't get anyone to trim the rose bush that grows under the kitchen window that has decided that between the window and the screen is the proper place for it to grow...
So you see there is a lot I have to sort through now and figure out... I feel helpless and useless... I feel worth less than an Isrealite slave of old Egypt... I matter to no one and after the last 2 1/2 months THE ONLY THING I have figured out that my family doesn't even want me to matter to me...(future blog about how my stuff isn't important because it is my stuff)... all the work that I had done on working on me has gone it would seem... same old stuff there with concerns to the family... plus a whole new light on things...
God bless.....
Caution the pictures are not for the faint at heart.......
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